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Mar. 20th, 2006
12:40 am - I wanted this to end but.....
My boss or someone close to him has been reading my live journal and using it to implicate me in some form or fashion of blackmail to shut me up. In all honesty because they haven't revealed themselves I'm taking this as some form of warning to keep me quiet. I do not know if they intend to try and have me fired or what not, but I honestly don't care right now. If somehow whoever's doing this cares to drag it on, they are aparently not going to stop til I am gone or what not. It's better to have this matter confronted face to face I guess. But seeing as how that might not happen, we're at a stand still because as you will have realized by now, I'm keeping my mouth shut on the whole matter. But, if this drags on, I will hope that it ends one way or another. I'm not stupid enough to talk about this outside the confines of this, and I am honestly surprised what I said outside of work would be used against me inside of work. The fact that it is printed text is no different than people communicating verbally. I have not told anyone work related that this has happened, and I have kept it to myself. However, I'm being the quiet one so for now as long as you can understand that I am keeping this under the lid for obvious reasons, I hope that you can do the same. That's all I can say for now seeing as how whoever's doing this to me is obviously trying to get under my skin. It won't work, please understand that. If we are on a good understanding, than all will be good. That's all I can say on this matter until someone changes the situation for me.
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contemplativeFeb. 13th, 2006
10:53 pm - My Last Entry for a looooooooooooonnnnnng time
Welp folks. It's been a blast. Good times, bad times, I"ve had my fair share. Things have finally been set into motion. I think I'm gonna take a break from the internet for awhile. Define it however you want. If you want to find me I Know you will. Best wish's to everyone, I'll be around.
Once again I must emphasize I'm not going to kill myself :)
Feb. 12th, 2006
10:50 am - Movies, Halo Co-op, Websites, Theory, Soreness.
Movies : Underworld Evolution... Eh, it's alright. My opinion of everything in general falls in between a category of "What, you think your shit don't stink?" to "Hey, I actually liked episode 1". Aka this means, I try to keep my opinions of movies to myself, because I hold it very dear to me, and I've dealt with too many people in my life that seem to think they have the awnser to everything to just go off about my feelings. This of course will lead to major psychiatric help later in life, but doesn't everyone need that everyonce in a while?
Halo Co-op: Went much better than I expected.
Websites: I have the biggest creators block yet. Hopefully I can just stick with somethign and not constantly change it. Damn you inspiration!
Theory: So I'm finally watching this whole extra's thing that came with my Matrix ultimate set where they have all these intelligent philosphers and scientists discussing all the theories behind how the matrix relates to so many different relgiions and shit. I hate that, even though I like the ideas represented because it gives too many iddiots ammunition to think they're "enlightened".
My right arm feels sore, and I haven't jerked off in four days. I wonder what that's all about.
Feb. 9th, 2006
05:03 pm - Brokeback to the Future!
Dude, I seriously had a great day at work, and then I come home, make an EXCELENT meal and then as I'm eating, I do my daily check your news email bullshit routine, and I find this : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zfODSPIY
My day is complete. Well.... I still need to watch the office, which btw is the BEST show ever put on tv in my opinion for various reasons it's sick. yes, I said it, in it's own ways, IT'S FUCKING BETTER THAN LOST OR BUFFY OR ANYTHING YOU WOULD EVER THINK OF SEEING ON TV. Trust me folks, no one plays an iddiot as well as steve carrel, and if you don't watch the two main characters, see how much they love each other but can't do anythng about it, and if you've NEVER been in that situation, even a lil, I'll gladly put you out of your misery for you.
two weeks from now at this time I'll be doing this from my new room, in my new house, enjoying low bills, lots of socialization without leaving my house, and well..... Family.
Feb. 8th, 2006
08:19 pm - Yeah!
Heh, what do you know. I actually asked a girl out for a date on Valentines Day. Plus because of the overtime I'm banking so I can like pick her up, pay for her food, take her bowling possibly, and just chill out. Besides that I'm actually two different people.
05:08 am - Videogames
I've come to realize something scary. Your average 10 year old has the same gaming intelect of me when I had a gaming intelect at 16. Videogames are training kids to remember stuff better and better. I'm almost afraid to think of the fact that our society is inadvertantly programming itself like this. 3 generations from now we're gonna see more people using their brains all because they liked instant gratification a lil too much. WTF Mate!
Feb. 4th, 2006
09:32 pm - Had a nice long day.... man I'm fucking tired
I should be out drinking right now visiting poeple, but I've had a long day and even though it was fulfilling, I still wanted to go out drinking. Room's finished with the painting. Now I'm on the verge of measuring out space. Sides that, Gotta clean this house tomorow morning. Joy!
Feb. 3rd, 2006
04:12 pm - Yooooooooo
Man,this sucks. Dawg's quitting. I can't really do anything about it, and I'm gonna be stuck at this site til at least the end of the year most likely. At least I'll have lots of motivation to get this shit underway. Now I have to buy paint and do lots of stuff. Errands on a friday night? Yeah, I am pretty sick!
Jan. 31st, 2006
05:09 pm - Overtime at work
Even though it's not supposed to be an issue, in the past I've seen people get sent home on friday for having "Too many hours". I on the other hand, am irreplacable for some odd reason. whether it be the fact I actually stay til 6 to finish up loading the night truck when everyone else is ready to leave or some other reason I don't know of, all I can tell is that I'm gonna be getting mad overtime which is great. Come March I order the medical transcription courses, and hopefully by the end of the year I'll be able to complete the course and find nifty ways of working from home. Yeah, that'd be great.
Jan. 29th, 2006
09:40 pm - Yeah
I'll be able ot start painting my new room here in a week or two. With my wall Shelves being installed the weekend after. I'm glad I got someone to take over my lease, even if it's only one month before I move out. I'm gonna be living my brother again. In between that fact and the idea that I will be living only 3 blocks away from my sister and 30 minutes walking distance from my parents makes me feel REAL happy. Ever since I've moved out, I've noticed how it's slowly gotten REALLY easier to actually love my family as opposed to just considering them people I'm related to.
On a side note, I got REALLY fucked up this weekend. I love alcohol and it really sucks that I'm a lightweight. I could keep drinking every day for the rest of my life, and three jaigerbombs and four beers could make me drive suicidal. Still though, getting fucked up on your b'day is the best time to do it on the idea that you get one free drink from the bar as is, and pretty much everyone you know, no matter how much you know them, usually buys you a drink of whatever.
Soon I'm gonna start putting some damn pictures on this thing on a daily basis, cause fucking April is such a show off. yeah, I'm talking about you ap's, with all your fucking pictures. You're making me jealous, and well, I wanna be like you now. Deal with it! (PS, I love you ! )
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calmJan. 27th, 2006
05:35 am - Bleah
My new Shaitsu Massaging Cushion is the bomb.....
Dinner at Chili's tomorow night, should be great......
Hopefully after I've moved out of this hell hole and into a more serene environment I can finally start feeling comfortable enough to start going to bed at a decent hour....
Jan. 25th, 2006
08:26 pm
I've gone on a hunger strike at work. Not the typical one you're thinking of. I'm basically not taking lunch breaks..... EVER AGAIN. The other sites are bitching about the quality of our work this week, but what they don't seem to understand is that 3/5 of our crew are all on SURPRISE sick leave for various reasons (I think there's a conspiracy in there somewhere). But yeah, they seem to think I'm more human than human even though our old site manager has even told me that this is just a thing that will pass. Regardless, due to the fact that we're being forced to bend down, I'm just gonna get mad overtime for the rest of my carreer at greenleaf. If they somehow think it's a smart idea to just automatically take an hour out of my day even though I don't clock out for lunch so be it. I am just gonna work through lunch. Today was my "Trial Period" on this hunger strike idea, and minus the fact we still ran late due to a Car-Cut that was pretty fucking big, I actually managed to get alot more done than on an average day where I take an hour out of my work schedule for some me time. Even if they catch on to this sick lil plan, I will have 16 hours of overtime on my next pay check which equals out to some lump sum I don't feel like broadcasting on here. And if they threaten me with my job, well, they'll understand why I used the word strike. Besides that, it's been chipper so far. It's cold outside again, but nothing too horrible. Besides that, I'll be 28 in 14 hours, and hopefully the family did the smart thing and got me the back massager that they sell at wal-greens. That thing is the shit, and I only hope they caught all my forcable hints. It's late, I'm tired, and I have a 9 hour shift ahead of me for the rest of my short carreer at green leaf.
Jan. 24th, 2006
11:52 pm - Hopefully
Hopefully I have enough money to get by until I get paid again. I've never been in this position where I'm without money, but at the same time, I'm not in debt anymore either. It's a good thing that I'm planning a secure financial future.
Jan. 23rd, 2006
04:49 pm - It sucked but there was a shining ray of light
Well, I am gonna be living with my brother and maria here at the end of february. I intend on saving lots of money bills / spending wise. There will be no shortage of cigarettes ever again.
Beyond that, today truely sucked ass. Imagine if you worked in a Resturaunt on Mother's day, and 3/5 of your staff all weren't there for ligitimate reasons that actually got them out of working that day. Yeah, that's pretty much how it was today at work. And the worser part is, alot of these poeple might be gone for multiple days. What really piss's me off about this whole equation is I had BIG plans for thursday which might get ruined. I dunno though, as long as half of the missing return to work by wednesday, I should be in the clear. It just sucks that I have to feel guilty about wanting to take a day off from work. It wouldn't be this bad if I had one of those jobs where there's no set schedule, but alas, I chose that 9-5 route. It has more benefits than problems, but this is just one of those magical times where it sorta just sucks.
Oh, and if you know me, and you respect my opinion on anything tv or movie, I highly suggest you start downloading 24. Don't worry about watching all the previous seasons, you don't have to. But This season is fucked up. It's Luke I am your father fucked up. Real Intense. I've been downloading episodes of that, Naruto, and Champoo and then uploading them onto my IPod for lunchbreaks. Now lunch is my favorite meal of the day!
Jan. 22nd, 2006
10:27 pm - Tough Decisions
I shouldn't really have to do it, but I'm making decisions for other people that they should just allowed to ask themselves. But the situations in of themselves ARE sensitive, and I guess I sorta need to be the adult here. It sucks just having to suck it up and I really wish it was different, but it's not. I'll just swallow my pride and hope for the best. Hopefully I get what I want out of life. I think that's all you can ever really do I guess, but still, this sucks.
Jan. 20th, 2006
11:59 pm - Ok, I'm an iddiot
For the longest time I never really got why people thought i was weird, or why they laughed at me when I was serious or didn't laugh when I was trying be sarcastic or funny. I don't know why myself, but I sorta see the point. Anyways, thanks to some chemical that finally got released in my brain while i was in tampa, I'm a whole new man aparently. I'm just........ realllll calm. I still am eric in alot of ways, but a big part of me that was intimidated by ALOT of things just sorta died out. I'm almost even over my fear of needles. This isn't to say I'mg oing to run to the Red Cross and start pumping blood, but still..... you get the point. Time for a smoke....
Jan. 19th, 2006
10:00 pm - Bleaaaaahhhhh
Updating my Ipod with lots of stuff... but.... I haven't been reading my news this entire week. My mom's b'day has maxed out my credit card, but it will be taken care of in due time as is. As much as I'd love to move in with my brother, I'm honestly looking into getting something in c'view that is in the way of a bedroom rental or something. Gonna have to get a cheap storage unit as well cause I got nice stuff I aint gonna give up, but that's besides the point. I need to start working on going to bed earlier. Must remember not to misplace my cell phone.
Jan. 18th, 2006
10:19 pm - Been here getting there seeing it all under the eye of something new and unnatural
This year life is expecting me to fight the system. And it's working honestly. I can't honestly explain this whole change, but I am just different. Life, friends, family, EVERYTHING, feels redefined. It'll make more sense for me hopefully. I dunno, this is just too wierd for me right now.
Jan. 16th, 2006
01:40 pm - What a fuckign weekend
Things that everyone noticed
1- Brad showed up and represented with tons of funny lil stories
2- I found a new love for cigarettes, nicotine, and tobacco in general
3- So much good food, good beer, good weed, good people, hot chicks, lots of sleep, lots of music, Dane Cook is the shit, We are Scientists is my new band of the week.....
4- I met Pual's brother, and Joe is possibly the coolest 17 / 16 year old I will ever know in my entire life. This kid wrote a virus that can destory your system via link, and that's nothing special, but he got his shit published on G4, and beyond that, he's pretty good at arm wrestling and pretty good at the drums.
5- This trip hurt me financially, but in the long run I will recover
6- I called in sick today because quite frankly you don't go on a trip like this and expect to work on fucking mlk day afterwards. Regardless, with that being said, one of our drivers spotted me in my brother's truck on the road. I'm gonna laugh if they bring this up at work tomorow, because they all know full well why I took the day off, and I don't even know why I'm sweating this, but I am. it's all good.
Jan. 14th, 2006
11:03 pm - Getting out and about
Can't wait to get home post pictures.....
1.) Coyote Ugly is ALMOST better than a strip club. Strippers lately can't girate the expectancy hollywood has mislead me and my hormones into needing.
2.) Long trips are relaxing....
3.) Sadly, no cafe risque pit stop for yours truely this time around. Oh well, there's always next year.
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